Thank you, Arashi!

Ok, i think i wanna talk about it here.

Arashi just announced that starting 2021, they will going to hiatus from all arashi's activity. as a group. They've planned this since June 2017. It was ohchan who had the idea. he gathered other member to talk about the idea of him living in normal life.

The fact that they announce this 2 years earlier is showing how kind Arashi to us, fans. It's like they want to give us time to prepare ourselves. This kind of arashi is so kind, i feel like i dont deserves them.

I'm shocked. at first. of course. who wasnt.
I always knew this day would come. However, when you face the real deal. the official announcement. from arashi themselves. it's like... a dream. a bad one unfortunately. so bad, i want to wake up from that dream.

I cried. a lot. i wet my pillow and my tshirt. i'm not really sure myself why i cried, but i did cry.

I mean, i do really want Arashi to be happy (so, i shouldnt be crying right?). I want them to be happy. I want ohchan to be happy, but yappa.. i cant stop the tears streaming down my face.

After i give myself time to cry and to calm myself down. Finally, i watched the press conference with the thought of ready to fight all the negativity and depressed atmosphere. But i was wrong! The press conference is very calming, they even wearing a bright outfit, not an all-black-gloomy suits, they looking good and fresh. They are just being their usual-Arashi-self. Answer all the questions seriously but not with a sad face. they're smiling, laughing, teasing each other, teasing the journalist (i mean, aoki genta-ana), and somehow it reassuring. I might dont understand a thing about what they said at the presscon but their gesture and expression is very calming. i didnt cry at all. i just feel more grateful and grateful to their existence.

Arashi is arashi. Arashi is the 5 of them.

I feel warm. I thought, "ah, i stan the best manband". Arashi taught me about maturity, about loving, caring, how to be gentle, how to working hard etc. That's the best thing i learn from Arashi. i believe their presence all this time, the way they treat us is the one that make me this strong.

I believe, after their hiatus, nothing gonna change from me. I'd still listen to their song, watching all their variety shows, dramas and movies i havent watched, or just simply rewatching to their old videos over and over again.

Everything will be like the usual. I'm sure of it. Go nin de iru zutto iru, afterall.

I pray for them, i hope when they're taking break, they will be happier, please dont take us fans as a burden. we know we depend on you guys so much, but i want to let you break with no hard feeling too. So yeah.. i'm surprisingly so excited now about what gonna happen to them after hiatus. getting married? have a small happy family? have a lot of me time and producing something special?. we dont know. but i hope they will enjoy that upcoming life later:')

I don't know whether i should hoping for their come back in the future. BUT, when that time is come:

I'll gladly say "Okaeri" to their "Tadaima"

thank you for everything, Arashi-san! I love you guys so much! 2 years to go! Let's make a lot of beautiful memories together<3